supposed to say...

we are at a coffee shop and he looks into my eyes and says again I still love you I had to leave to know I know now

I don't answer. I shake my head slowly. I think of someone else... I think of how we used to be. I think of how it used to be so long ago two seasons ago.

He is going on and on, begging? You are all I have, I can't live without you. I say finally I can't come back to you, there is no comitment, you will leave again, you haven't proven a thing to me. He pulls out a ring and shows it to me. He is crying. Please he says, please. I will be with you forever. I had to leave you to know.

I look at the ring but not in his eyes. This was supposed to be the sign. I purse my lips and say now you know.

Puis je mets ma tete dans les mains.